When I think of you,
There’s something inspiring about being by your side. You expose me to all possibilities, whether or not they are tough to get. Your smile radiates my kneecaps and helps me to forget everything bad because you value my happiness and remind me every day of what I deserve. You work hard and push me to despite a rough day or two. You admire all that I accomplish and share when you do so as not to take my light but share space in the glory. Your intentions are pure and were clear from Day One; you pride yourself on honesty and being transparent with your decisions for yourself and those made with and for me. You don’t break promises, even the smallest ones, and are quick to apologize if that ever arises. You are clear on your goals, with or without me, which is not only motivating but makes me more intrigued to do life with you. No conversation feels forced because there’s always something to talk about. Daily occurrences. Deep dives into our pasts. Sharing our dreams… and nightmares. We connect on several things but we appreciate our differences and see the good in them molding what we have.
I don’t have to question your intention. I am comfortable with assuming the best because the best is what you have to offer, even when in combat with my ‘glass half empty’ mentality. Not your fault, but you assume responsibility. Your mantra is that we can figure it out together. You take pride in us, presenting me not on a pedestal but as someone of significance that you are most honored to be with, be around, and be influenced by. You don’t allow life’s woes to take time from us. Even when it gets hard to stay afloat, I know that you are a paddle away and I respect when you need time to catch up. You don’t settle but you give everything a try because what you want for yourself and even you and I is more important that holding up your ego. As a matter of fact, you park your ego at the door. You love a good debate but that is all that it is because you don’t allow one disagreement to sever our ties. You make me feel safe even when I’m not feeling, looking, or being my best. There’s not a judgmental bone in your body, but you pull me up when needed because, why not. You honor your word and your word is all you got even when you’re only on the first step to fulfilling it. Life will get messy but you assure me that there is a light ahead, and we will get there together. There is no uncertainty but no rush as we both grow to appreciate the delicacy of time and know that we must use all of what we have. You never forget that even when things get rough. You also hold me accountable to that.
I admire your ability to be vulnerable and share your deepest fears but also your vividest dreams. I am important enough to know. That is what you tell me. You are super spontaneous and remember the silliest details of our conversations; all so that you plan things for me; surprise me; fulfill the deepest parts of what you know that I want and need. You never make me feel like I have to fight for your attention even when you’re most busy, here goes an emoji. You are always thinking of me as I am always thinking of you. Even when we argue, you are thinking of me, because it is never about making me feel low; it is about helping me to understand. Helping us to come to a resolve. Being able to see past it and to something brighter, like clarity. You never abandon me or the idea that one bump in the road doesn’t mean a halt in the journey.
You always have the best sense of humor but you do feel your feelings. Yup. Those bad ones too. We allow each other space, but I am always the first that you want to talk to. You have so many interesting facets about you. I learn something new every day and even when it gets old, I am still fascinated by you.
You know me and thrive to know me, inside and out. You want to know more about my friends and my family. You want to take part, nervousness aside, but you don’t see yourself going anywhere, anytime soon. You appreciate my quirks. You value my opinion. You never fail to let me know how inspiring I am to you. Off day or not, you want me, and me only. You are resourceful. Dependable. There before I even ask. It’s if you just know. You respect my boundaries. You ask questions. You listen.You care. I don’t have to do this alone. You’re always a millisecond to the right.
Although we have separate lives and obligations, you’ve made me a priority. I never feel like an option; existing on a back burner; second, third, or tenth to everything and everyone. Life exists outside of you and I, but you make sure to let me know that we are in this together. Lack of love is unheard of. What we have falls nothing short of true partnership. 100/100. Paid in full.
Til the desired outcome flies,
Ella.
The Daily Ella 